Entry #1:
Hey!
So I got into all stars! Seems like it's gonna be a really fun season. A lot of competitors [or at least i hope] are in the season, so I'm expecting a fun & challenging time.
I'm writing this just after week 1 ended, so you're getting pure 100% raw emotion. i might hurt some peoples feelings that i end up liking, so please take everything with a grain of salt if you're reading this and we got good w/ each other by the time the season ended. thats goes for all my confessionals. love ya xx
so first ill start from before the session. i was speaking to kourtney before the season started. i told her i was worried about the "msa" kinda reforming and steamrolling the season. now i'm gonna be real: i don't know for sure what kind of state their friendship is, or who is friends with who still. all i know is that 9 players in the season were formerly in the msa. that makes me very nervous, as I think it should to anyone. so guess what...he runs to classic and sends screenshots of our conversation him. classic call me out in the main chat. obviously I'm ######## pissed as anyone would be. i tell them straight up that i was in fact concerned. the drama kinda died down in the main chat, but i was obviously very worried about it. more than I was before I told kourtney. this is a key element for what happens later on.
I regroup with my pal from bbb6 phorix and peanut. apparently peanut is low-key with the "msa"? kinda made me nervous not gonna lie. I always talked to avastie & wander & caz. all seemed pretty legit and down to help me take out the alliance. I later find out caz is good friends with kourtney, but thats for later. long story short, i try and prepare for what I know is going to be a tight vote.
I go out to eat with my friends, so I'm like half an hour late to the session; missing the hoh competition. however, i'm not bothered because my good judy wander won it!! its like halfway through the nom ceremony when i get there, so i kinda just gotta sit tight and see what happens. anyways, things happen and felisha and turt end up as the nominees. although this isn't the ideal situation i was hoping for, wander told me his plan was to renominate kourtney so I was feeling fine. pov comes around and classic ends up winning. I immediately tell wander to let classic know we will *NOT* be putting up kourt [a lie]. I'm actually not sure if he ended up telling classic this, but he ended up using the pov so either way it worked out. kourtney is renominated, final noms are felisha and kourtney.
the vote ends up being 8-7, felisha going home. would of been 8-8 and wander sending kourt home if turt sent in his vote, but it's whatever. while people are voting, thunder and classic literally come up to me and start blabbering about how i controlled the week and this is exactly what i wanted. I'm pretty amused because, maybe i did have a heavy influence on the pov renom. they don't need to know that though. I call their asses out anyways and i make it VERY clear in the skyp chat that I'll be gunning for all of those maggots that are working together. now i'm for sure on just about half the casts list of who to nominate when they win hoh. i'm not bothered.
bottom line is that i'm FORCED to play tough this season. in the end, it'll probably send my ass home. but frankly, no one else is going to call out and go against the "msa" like i will. I will be fighting tooth and nail, pulling for every vote and fighting in every comp to send them home. when i win hoh, there will be no pawns. i'll be putting my two biggest targets on the block. if they get removed, ill put my 3rd and fourth.
they are all very scared of me. and they should be xo
Entry #2:
Hey!! So i'm checking back in with yall, right after the second episode - raw emotion & drama delivered as usual. this one was juicy, so if ya scrolling through dr's; you might wanna stay tuned for this one. this week was insane for me, but i'll try and break it down for you.
after the first episode, I made a distinct effort to connect with some of the outliers in the house. I wanted to try and build some solid support to go against the maggots. thats my name for the alliance of classic/kett/kourtney/thunder/rob(?)/caz(?). in addition, i wanted to figure out exactly who kept kourtney and who evicted her. i spoke and connected well with spood/mac/jake/yellow/and kinda reigned tony back in. i feel like i have atleast a foundation of a relationship with all of them now.
we start the night out with the hoh. it was an obby played in rounds. i knew immediately i wasn't going to win this, and that i'd probably go to the physical players like thunder/classic/kett. sure enough, thunder wins it. at this point, i'm literally just hoping i get to play in the veto.
veto rolls around and i end up losing. my keyboard screwed up and it walked me right off the damn thing. thunder wins it and my fate has been efficiently secured as a final nominee.
it ends up me and lion sitting on the block. I'm honestly not that worried. of course i'm a final nominee and anything is possible, but for the most part i think people will keep me to go after the maggots. shockingly - the vote is 13-3, with me staying safe and lion going home. obviously i'm very relieved that i'm here for another week, but at the same it worries me a little. I think up until this point i've definitely built my appearance as a rebel who is openly targeting the maggots. I've done this on purpose because I KNOW it'll make me a target. this early on in the season, people want a shield to protect them. most of the houseguests aren't ready to start making moves. they wanna wait until later to build up their resume. maybe that will end up being the smart choice, but i've already established myself as the rebel so i just have to roll with it.
anyways, back to why is worries me. 13-3 is a huge difference. people IN the maggot alliance kept me. not only that, but they kept me against someone who [no shade lion] would've probably ended up being AE'd for inactivity because he had yet to show up to an episode. this makes me look like a huge social player. which, although i've definitely been pushing my influence on a lot of the house, is not really that true. this contradicts my rebel appearance very badly. i don't want people getting the wrong idea and feeling threatened. the only thing that keeps me comfortable is that I know the maggots are going to win comps. the death of their alliance won't be fast - it'll be a slow occurrence, over many weeks. in that time they'll win plenty of comps and send some people home. maybe ill be one of them. but as long as they are physically threatening, i think the majority of the house will keep me around.
sorry if that was a bit rambly. idw bore yall with the fine details of all of my relationships - but just know I'm building some strong ones & making some new ones. although i am isolating the members of the maggots to the point where ill never be able to work with them again, the trade off is that other houseguests feel like they can trust me a lot more. thanks for reading!! and wish me luck :-)
Entry #3:
Hey all! so I'm back with my third confessional. this one will probably be a little bit shorter but here we go:
so the episode started off pretty normally. the hoh is a counting competition, where you need to count household objects before the HOH begins. so i run my ass around the entire house and I feel like I count literally every single thing imaginable. i make sure to add details to my notes, just in case I need them as well. we go into the HOH competition and it's played in rounds. winners or each round select the next 4 houseguests to play. I'm actually not even picked until the final 6 of the competition. anyways, I make it to the final 3 - me, classic, and rob. the question was how many tv's are in the house. this was legit i feel like the ONE thing I didn't think to count. I knew there was either 2 or 3 in the house, and previously evan had asked questions where the answer was usually more than you actually thought...so i go with 3. it's wrong. after I'm eliminated rob obviously throws the hoh to classic and class takes becomes head of household for the week.
Going into the nomination ceremony I'm actually not that sure how to feel. Classic came to me wanting to flip to my side of the house. I didn't buy it because I know he was still gonna roll with his friends, but I told him that we were good and i'd keep him safe as long as he didn't nominate me. however, even after talking to him I had no idea what to expect. He ends up nominating wander and sparky, noms aren't terminated.
at this point, I'm low-key worried that the maggots' plan is to pull sparky down and backdoor me. thankfully, i get selected to play in veto. it's the competition I won from evbb5! I end up winning it and I'm very relieved that I'll be in the game for another week. however, I quickly realize that I was going to have to make a very difficult decision. a lot of people did not want me to use it - the maggots & the outliers. the maggots don't want the extra blood on their hands, the outliers don't want the chance of going up. however, I WANT to save wander. I feel like out of all the outliers, he's the only one who the maggots have really went after. although people were criticizing me saying he was week in comps, he's made it clear that he's TRYING to win HOH and get them out. half of the outliers are literally just throwing everything. they all want to slide by riding the middle to get to the end of the game. pretty soon they're all gonna regret it, because once I & a few of the other people that try get out, it's going to be THEM that the maggots go after. anyways, back to my decision. I think wander trusts me and I'm one of the few people that he actually is aligned with.
I chat with classic about who he plans to renominate if I were to use it. he told me - turt, nanto, kourt, or peanut. I tried to make up a story about how me and kourt weren't actually fighting, and that it was all fake. I thought he might've bought that story + I wanted wander down regardless, so I ended up using the veto. peanut goes up in wander's place. it's definitely not ideal, but the week was not going to go the way I wanted with classic as hoh anyways. at this point I was just going to try and get spark out who I really haven't talked to at all. classic tells everyone in his speech that I "knew peanut was going up, yet used it anyways" so a lot of the outliers are annoyed at me. peanut ends up getting evicted and is livid w/ me. honestly, at the end of the day after classic said that it was probably best that peanut went home, because it would've been difficult for me to regain his trust.
at the end of the day, I know a lot of the other houseguests are probably criticizing me in their dr's about how it was a dumb move, but honestly; I think I made the right choice. It was going to be a bad outcome regardless of what I did, and I'd rather have wander over peanut. wander has been a little sketchy with wanting to quit ROBLOX, but even if he does - one step closer to the crown. :-)
Entry #4:
bunch of damn rats
Entry #5:
howdy yall! I'm back with another confessional :-) I think I low-key skipped last week but ill try and cover everything that happened. I'm writing this after the double eviction where rob & caz went home.
so i'm gonna start with last week since I didn't write about it. long story short - thunder goes home. this was the first big success i've really had all season. obvi ya girl was right about keeping wander around. I don't wanna sound full of myself, but I'm so thankful I kept him around. there wasn't really anything crazy that happened that session, and I forgot a lot of the details so sorry lol.
anyways, back to the session that occurred yesterday the day I'm writing this. the night begins with an hoh competition - it's luck. I competed in it season 5 and lost miserably. The goal is to push a ball down a ramp and hope it roles down into a slot that will earn you the most points. I get a bad score, and I'm out immediately. The HOH continues and classic ends up being the last person to shoot - and he gets the highest, crowning him the HOH for the short week ahead. its not looking too hot for tastyshadow. I'm expecting to put up on the block this week - so the only thing i can really do is hope I slide by. Classic ends up nominating rob and spark. I'm shocked. Why would classic put up rob? Literally the dumbest thing I can think to do. thank god for whatever fight or whatnot they got into. despite it being a 50/50 chance, the nominations remain the same.
so the veto competition comes up. unfortunately, i'm not selected to play. the competition was another one from evbb5 - you were speeded very high and had to run up a narrow runway. last person to the top each round was eliminated. much to my despair, spark wins it. that means a spot on the block is going to have to be filled. and not surprisingly, guess who fills it - me.
so i'm up on the block. it's a nerve-wracking feeling, but I feel comforted that I'm up against rob. although this entire season he's been throwing, he's very good at competitions. Looking at the voters, I feel like they should have my back. I've felt pretty solid with all of them and I'm expecting they take a shot at another one of the maggots.
The vote ends up being 7-6. I'm shook. It's a terrifying feeling when only 1 vote keeps you in the house. Obviously some people who had previously aligned themselves with me had voted me out. I feel pretty blindsided - but i'm not shocked. like usual, apeople are threatened by me. But the priority is to discover who wanted me out. The obvious ones are kett, kourt, and caz. That's 3. I end up confronting practically everyone in the alliance - they all say they kept me except for yellow, who admitted to having voted me out over "feeling pressured by classic." So that's 4 total votes. Two other people who I had previously trusted voted me out. If I'm being honest, even as I write this I'm not 100% sure about who they are. However, I have a hunch that it's mac & spood. They are both good allies with yellow - and if any 3 people were coordinated in voting together, they would be the ones. Plus, spood has said multiple times that he's on pretty good terms with classic - so if classic was to get in anyone's ear it would be him. I don't know it for sure, but it worries me. Does this mean that they are all gonna work together? I'm actually very nervous about it. even more worried then w/ the maggots. they could be very powerful together, and the only other people on my side of the house that I feel like are gonna really try to win hoh with me are wander, nanto, and maybe tony. turt hasn't tried at all yet, and if jake was putting effort into the comps it isn't showing. me/wander/tony?/nanto does not sound very hopeful to me at all.
It's definitely time to push my gameplay up a notch, because the season is about to get really intense.
Entry #6:
hello everyone, checking back in with another dr. :) i can't remember when i last checked in, but i think its been a couple weeks. it's the final 8 now, spood just got evicted. just like usual i'll try and go over whats been happening recently and how I'm feeling. first i'm going to give you a list of everyone and how i'm feeling with them all
tony: me & tony are really tight right now. we talk constantly about game so I feel pretty secure with him going forward. but, i also get the vibe from him that he's a rat so i wouldn't be surprised if he ends up taking my##s###ut.
classic: although we've definitely had our differences in the past, at this very moment we are on good terms. taking out spood has strengthened our trust. however, within the next couple of weeks i want him gone so I definitely don't want us getting to close.
spark: I also feel like I'm on good terms with spark, but I haven't spoken much with him so to be completely honest. I'm not really sure where he stands in the house.
nanto: i'm also really good with nanto. I think I would be willing to go all the way with him, but we'll see what happens. he's pretty trustworthy and isn't bad at comps so hes a good ally.
phorix: i feel like i'm good with phorix, however, i think him and yellow are close which low-key hinders my relationship with him & prevents me from getting to close with him.
yellow: yellow's cool and all, but i know he's a well rounded player. he literally always gets me out so i want him gone next week if possible.
jake: no tea no shade but like...he hasn't really done much and I've barely spoken with him. no idea where he stands
so as you can gather from this, i'm feeling like i'm in a pretty good position in the house. it's been a very difficult season, but i've gotten to a point where it's basically just me and a lot of the people i initially trusted. I'm not playing like crazy, just kinda chilling and making sure what i want happens. wish me luck :)
Entry #7:
hello!! its me, tast! i'm writing this while it's the final 6. honestly so insane that I've made it this far. to think I literally was the biggest target and my life in the game was on the line week TWO makes it crazy that I'm still here. its march 23, and tonight we have a de. aka, a third of the entire remaining cast will be going home. Originally I wasn't gonna write this, but I thought I should probably give a final [hopefully not] update on my game just in case something happens.
since my last dr, nanto & yellow have been evicted. losing nanto was not a fun experience. he really was a close and trustworthy ally, and so him leaving was not optimal to my game. I was glad however about yellow leaving. The house is very, idk, even I guess you could say. not really any crazy power duos or alliances controlling the game. it'll really come down to who wins the competitions and what they personally would like to do. relationship wise, I actually feel really good about my game. everyone is at least on good terms with me, although I'm sure some want me gone. I've made good decisions to get me this far, but I'm unsure about what to do next.
the most obvious move would be do go after classic. he's strong in competitions, can't play in hoh this week, and has a couple friends on the jury. He definitely needs to go home, it's just I'm a little worried about what would happen to me if he went home. I would definitely have the biggest resume by far [no shade]. Most of the other houseguests didn't really play at all until jury, and even then still kept it low-key. I on the other hand have been fighting and playing very hard since before I even entered the house. a lot of the houseguests are intimidated by me. I don't think they'd think twice about going after me once classic goes home. I see no reason why they'd want to keep me around any longer. I'm not going to be a shield anymore, and nobody wants to go the end with me.
the other option would be to go after someone else. who that'd be, idk. i could pick off somebody like jake or spark, but I feel like that would not only waste a week [sorry jake and spark ily], but it would severely damage me in the final 5 when I can't play for hoh anymore. plus, i'm worried if I don't get out classic now that he'll be able to win competitions until he gets to the end.
as you can see, i'm in a bit of a predicament. Both choices lead me to a hard path to the final 2. at this point, i've come to the conclusion that it's just going to come down to me winning the competitions. if i can win those, I really do believe I can win this game. but just like in most other seasons I've played in, it usually comes down to me needing to win a competition; and failing to do so. i'm optimistic though, if classic goes home I'm left in a house full of players that aren't the best at competitions. spark is good at comps, but I know I'd at least stand a chance competing.
I really hope I'm still in the game after tonight's episode, and I can honestly see it going either way for me. if I do go home, it's been such a fun season. the cast has been so much fun to play with and I really do like everyone in it. no matter what people think about my game, I've worked so hard and this has probably been my strongest game out of any season i've played!! obv I'm proud of myself lol :) no hard feelings, and as usual if i've said something shady about you please don't take offense. if i do end up staying then this'll be an awkward last paragraph lmao but w/e, just making sure i end on a good note. love ya & thx for reading xx
Entry #8:
AHHH om##########irl is still in the game lmao!! it's the final four. that last episode was definitely the most intense all season for me. I'm gonna recap what happened.
we start the session off with a final 6 HOH. I'm feeling good because classic can't play, which immediately increases my chances of winning by 1000% lmao. The competition is to role one ball up a ramp, and then jump on a second ball and roll it through a maze [the floor is lava so if you fall off the ball you're dead]. the ball is really small and so it moves fast, aka scary and difficult to stay on. but some how some way, i didn't fall once and made it to the end and won hoh! i'm obviously ecstatic about my first ever hoh win this season, but it comes along with a lot of responsibilities. in my last dr, i wasn't really sure what I wanted to do if i won hoh. to keep it brief, i decided on targeting classic. i decided to nominate him against jake. fingers crossed the noms could stay the same!!
LMAO of course they didn't. veto was otev. evan told us a certain hat and asked us to find the corresponding houseguest that was wearing the hat in their memory wall picture. I did okay, making it past the first two rounds. but ofc, i lost on the third round and got fourth in veto. : (. classic ended up winning, which was awful because now my target was going to stay for another week, and i had to go more blood on my hands. spark ended up being my renomination as he is good at competitions, and i'm not 100% sure where he lied in the house. I really like spark, but he ended up going 2-1 vote. :(
with the first week of the de out of the way, i'm feeling really nervous. i can't play in hoh, and my life in the game was looking grim. classic wins hoh, i'm feeling even more screwed. the veto comes around - it looks like something i might be able to win. we individually got different colors in a paint bucket and had to paint as many blocks in the room as possible. phorix ends up winning, sealing my fate as a final nominee. classic puts up tony, no shock there.
## #### ###### i really do feel like I'm going home. Phorix says he'll keep me, but I know he has a good ############ with tony so it's sketchy. i literally just nominated jake the week before, so i'm feeling very uneasy about getting his vote. and even if i were to get one of their votes, classic was dead set on breaking the tie sending me home. never in this game have i felt so hopeless sitting on the block. but, one thing is for sure that i was going to FIGHT to stay in the this house.
first off, phorix said he was leaning towards keeping me. he needs another competitor and target to keep around to help him go after classic, and tony is neither of those things. regardless of my pleas about tony and phorix being a f2, me willing to make deals, etc; classic was not budging. he was not going to keep me if it tied. that made everything depend on jake. i PLEADED my damn heart out to jake. i sweared that i would take him to the final 2 no matter what if he saved me. long story short, the impossible happened and i was kept by a 2-0 vote. I was shook let me tell you. tony went home, a good ally and friend of mine - but of course i'm glad that i get to keep on competing.
the final 4 is such a huge achievement, and the win is so close that if i went home now it would be so painful. going forward my number one concern is sending home classic. then, hopefully take jake [possibly phorix] to the final 2 w/ me and win all stars!! lmao best case scenario, wish me luck xx
Entry #9:
hi folks!! I'm writing this right now because phorix has won the final head of household and is deciding to either evict jake or myself. i'll start by recapping the final 4 week.
the final 4 competitions are absolutely crucial. the HOH is my best bet because classic is ineligible to compete, so I just have to beat phorix and jake. in the competition, you have to find the blocks with the houseguests picture on it and then line it up in order of eviction. person who completes it the fastest wins head of household. I start off well collecting the blocks and start putting them in order. However, I completely forgot when Turtly walked from the season. I had to move every single block to switch one mistake, and it was painfully slow. In the end, jake beats me.
if the stakes for winning the veto weren't already high, now they are insanely high. the competition is spleef - and I'm so happy because thats the one competition I'm actually good at. the comp lasted quite a while, and in the end I actually win the damn competition. I'm so incredibly relieved that I'm guaranteed final 3, and my decision was to evict classic. I thought I had the best chance beating phorix and jake in the final head of household. Looking back, this may have been the decision that cost me the game. If I had evicted jake instead, both phorix and classic would have probably brought me to the final 2.
Now I'm in a predicament where I some how have to convince phorix to bring me to the final 2 over JAKE. I literally am going to pull every card in the book to try and get phorix to keep me. I'm telling him that jake has much more jury support than me and he stands a better chance winning against me then jake. will it work? probably not. however I'm not going to stop pleading & fighting until I'm sent home. thats just how I play.
Even if I'm able to convince phorix to evict jake over me, beating him in the final 2 will be tough. between his allies being on the jury/bitter jurors, my chances of winning the game with the 5 juror votes i need are very very bleak.
This is going to be my final diary room for the season, probably regardless of what place I get. this season has been intense and it's been extremely difficult to get to this point. I have fought and clawed my way to this final 3, and to lose now would be devastating. no matter what happens, I know I played the game the best that I could and if i go out, I'll go out fighting. xx, tasty
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Hey!
So I got into all stars! Seems like it's gonna be a really fun season. A lot of competitors [or at least i hope] are in the season, so I'm expecting a fun & challenging time.
I'm writing this just after week 1 ended, so you're getting pure 100% raw emotion. i might hurt some peoples feelings that i end up liking, so please take everything with a grain of salt if you're reading this and we got good w/ each other by the time the season ended. thats goes for all my confessionals. love ya xx
so first ill start from before the session. i was speaking to kourtney before the season started. i told her i was worried about the "msa" kinda reforming and steamrolling the season. now i'm gonna be real: i don't know for sure what kind of state their friendship is, or who is friends with who still. all i know is that 9 players in the season were formerly in the msa. that makes me very nervous, as I think it should to anyone. so guess what...he runs to classic and sends screenshots of our conversation him. classic call me out in the main chat. obviously I'm ######## pissed as anyone would be. i tell them straight up that i was in fact concerned. the drama kinda died down in the main chat, but i was obviously very worried about it. more than I was before I told kourtney. this is a key element for what happens later on.
I regroup with my pal from bbb6 phorix and peanut. apparently peanut is low-key with the "msa"? kinda made me nervous not gonna lie. I always talked to avastie & wander & caz. all seemed pretty legit and down to help me take out the alliance. I later find out caz is good friends with kourtney, but thats for later. long story short, i try and prepare for what I know is going to be a tight vote.
I go out to eat with my friends, so I'm like half an hour late to the session; missing the hoh competition. however, i'm not bothered because my good judy wander won it!! its like halfway through the nom ceremony when i get there, so i kinda just gotta sit tight and see what happens. anyways, things happen and felisha and turt end up as the nominees. although this isn't the ideal situation i was hoping for, wander told me his plan was to renominate kourtney so I was feeling fine. pov comes around and classic ends up winning. I immediately tell wander to let classic know we will *NOT* be putting up kourt [a lie]. I'm actually not sure if he ended up telling classic this, but he ended up using the pov so either way it worked out. kourtney is renominated, final noms are felisha and kourtney.
the vote ends up being 8-7, felisha going home. would of been 8-8 and wander sending kourt home if turt sent in his vote, but it's whatever. while people are voting, thunder and classic literally come up to me and start blabbering about how i controlled the week and this is exactly what i wanted. I'm pretty amused because, maybe i did have a heavy influence on the pov renom. they don't need to know that though. I call their asses out anyways and i make it VERY clear in the skyp chat that I'll be gunning for all of those maggots that are working together. now i'm for sure on just about half the casts list of who to nominate when they win hoh. i'm not bothered.
bottom line is that i'm FORCED to play tough this season. in the end, it'll probably send my ass home. but frankly, no one else is going to call out and go against the "msa" like i will. I will be fighting tooth and nail, pulling for every vote and fighting in every comp to send them home. when i win hoh, there will be no pawns. i'll be putting my two biggest targets on the block. if they get removed, ill put my 3rd and fourth.
they are all very scared of me. and they should be xo
Entry #2:
Hey!! So i'm checking back in with yall, right after the second episode - raw emotion & drama delivered as usual. this one was juicy, so if ya scrolling through dr's; you might wanna stay tuned for this one. this week was insane for me, but i'll try and break it down for you.
after the first episode, I made a distinct effort to connect with some of the outliers in the house. I wanted to try and build some solid support to go against the maggots. thats my name for the alliance of classic/kett/kourtney/thunder/rob(?)/caz(?). in addition, i wanted to figure out exactly who kept kourtney and who evicted her. i spoke and connected well with spood/mac/jake/yellow/and kinda reigned tony back in. i feel like i have atleast a foundation of a relationship with all of them now.
we start the night out with the hoh. it was an obby played in rounds. i knew immediately i wasn't going to win this, and that i'd probably go to the physical players like thunder/classic/kett. sure enough, thunder wins it. at this point, i'm literally just hoping i get to play in the veto.
veto rolls around and i end up losing. my keyboard screwed up and it walked me right off the damn thing. thunder wins it and my fate has been efficiently secured as a final nominee.
it ends up me and lion sitting on the block. I'm honestly not that worried. of course i'm a final nominee and anything is possible, but for the most part i think people will keep me to go after the maggots. shockingly - the vote is 13-3, with me staying safe and lion going home. obviously i'm very relieved that i'm here for another week, but at the same it worries me a little. I think up until this point i've definitely built my appearance as a rebel who is openly targeting the maggots. I've done this on purpose because I KNOW it'll make me a target. this early on in the season, people want a shield to protect them. most of the houseguests aren't ready to start making moves. they wanna wait until later to build up their resume. maybe that will end up being the smart choice, but i've already established myself as the rebel so i just have to roll with it.
anyways, back to why is worries me. 13-3 is a huge difference. people IN the maggot alliance kept me. not only that, but they kept me against someone who [no shade lion] would've probably ended up being AE'd for inactivity because he had yet to show up to an episode. this makes me look like a huge social player. which, although i've definitely been pushing my influence on a lot of the house, is not really that true. this contradicts my rebel appearance very badly. i don't want people getting the wrong idea and feeling threatened. the only thing that keeps me comfortable is that I know the maggots are going to win comps. the death of their alliance won't be fast - it'll be a slow occurrence, over many weeks. in that time they'll win plenty of comps and send some people home. maybe ill be one of them. but as long as they are physically threatening, i think the majority of the house will keep me around.
sorry if that was a bit rambly. idw bore yall with the fine details of all of my relationships - but just know I'm building some strong ones & making some new ones. although i am isolating the members of the maggots to the point where ill never be able to work with them again, the trade off is that other houseguests feel like they can trust me a lot more. thanks for reading!! and wish me luck :-)
Entry #3:
Hey all! so I'm back with my third confessional. this one will probably be a little bit shorter but here we go:
so the episode started off pretty normally. the hoh is a counting competition, where you need to count household objects before the HOH begins. so i run my ass around the entire house and I feel like I count literally every single thing imaginable. i make sure to add details to my notes, just in case I need them as well. we go into the HOH competition and it's played in rounds. winners or each round select the next 4 houseguests to play. I'm actually not even picked until the final 6 of the competition. anyways, I make it to the final 3 - me, classic, and rob. the question was how many tv's are in the house. this was legit i feel like the ONE thing I didn't think to count. I knew there was either 2 or 3 in the house, and previously evan had asked questions where the answer was usually more than you actually thought...so i go with 3. it's wrong. after I'm eliminated rob obviously throws the hoh to classic and class takes becomes head of household for the week.
Going into the nomination ceremony I'm actually not that sure how to feel. Classic came to me wanting to flip to my side of the house. I didn't buy it because I know he was still gonna roll with his friends, but I told him that we were good and i'd keep him safe as long as he didn't nominate me. however, even after talking to him I had no idea what to expect. He ends up nominating wander and sparky, noms aren't terminated.
at this point, I'm low-key worried that the maggots' plan is to pull sparky down and backdoor me. thankfully, i get selected to play in veto. it's the competition I won from evbb5! I end up winning it and I'm very relieved that I'll be in the game for another week. however, I quickly realize that I was going to have to make a very difficult decision. a lot of people did not want me to use it - the maggots & the outliers. the maggots don't want the extra blood on their hands, the outliers don't want the chance of going up. however, I WANT to save wander. I feel like out of all the outliers, he's the only one who the maggots have really went after. although people were criticizing me saying he was week in comps, he's made it clear that he's TRYING to win HOH and get them out. half of the outliers are literally just throwing everything. they all want to slide by riding the middle to get to the end of the game. pretty soon they're all gonna regret it, because once I & a few of the other people that try get out, it's going to be THEM that the maggots go after. anyways, back to my decision. I think wander trusts me and I'm one of the few people that he actually is aligned with.
I chat with classic about who he plans to renominate if I were to use it. he told me - turt, nanto, kourt, or peanut. I tried to make up a story about how me and kourt weren't actually fighting, and that it was all fake. I thought he might've bought that story + I wanted wander down regardless, so I ended up using the veto. peanut goes up in wander's place. it's definitely not ideal, but the week was not going to go the way I wanted with classic as hoh anyways. at this point I was just going to try and get spark out who I really haven't talked to at all. classic tells everyone in his speech that I "knew peanut was going up, yet used it anyways" so a lot of the outliers are annoyed at me. peanut ends up getting evicted and is livid w/ me. honestly, at the end of the day after classic said that it was probably best that peanut went home, because it would've been difficult for me to regain his trust.
at the end of the day, I know a lot of the other houseguests are probably criticizing me in their dr's about how it was a dumb move, but honestly; I think I made the right choice. It was going to be a bad outcome regardless of what I did, and I'd rather have wander over peanut. wander has been a little sketchy with wanting to quit ROBLOX, but even if he does - one step closer to the crown. :-)
Entry #4:
bunch of damn rats
Entry #5:
howdy yall! I'm back with another confessional :-) I think I low-key skipped last week but ill try and cover everything that happened. I'm writing this after the double eviction where rob & caz went home.
so i'm gonna start with last week since I didn't write about it. long story short - thunder goes home. this was the first big success i've really had all season. obvi ya girl was right about keeping wander around. I don't wanna sound full of myself, but I'm so thankful I kept him around. there wasn't really anything crazy that happened that session, and I forgot a lot of the details so sorry lol.
anyways, back to the session that occurred yesterday the day I'm writing this. the night begins with an hoh competition - it's luck. I competed in it season 5 and lost miserably. The goal is to push a ball down a ramp and hope it roles down into a slot that will earn you the most points. I get a bad score, and I'm out immediately. The HOH continues and classic ends up being the last person to shoot - and he gets the highest, crowning him the HOH for the short week ahead. its not looking too hot for tastyshadow. I'm expecting to put up on the block this week - so the only thing i can really do is hope I slide by. Classic ends up nominating rob and spark. I'm shocked. Why would classic put up rob? Literally the dumbest thing I can think to do. thank god for whatever fight or whatnot they got into. despite it being a 50/50 chance, the nominations remain the same.
so the veto competition comes up. unfortunately, i'm not selected to play. the competition was another one from evbb5 - you were speeded very high and had to run up a narrow runway. last person to the top each round was eliminated. much to my despair, spark wins it. that means a spot on the block is going to have to be filled. and not surprisingly, guess who fills it - me.
so i'm up on the block. it's a nerve-wracking feeling, but I feel comforted that I'm up against rob. although this entire season he's been throwing, he's very good at competitions. Looking at the voters, I feel like they should have my back. I've felt pretty solid with all of them and I'm expecting they take a shot at another one of the maggots.
The vote ends up being 7-6. I'm shook. It's a terrifying feeling when only 1 vote keeps you in the house. Obviously some people who had previously aligned themselves with me had voted me out. I feel pretty blindsided - but i'm not shocked. like usual, apeople are threatened by me. But the priority is to discover who wanted me out. The obvious ones are kett, kourt, and caz. That's 3. I end up confronting practically everyone in the alliance - they all say they kept me except for yellow, who admitted to having voted me out over "feeling pressured by classic." So that's 4 total votes. Two other people who I had previously trusted voted me out. If I'm being honest, even as I write this I'm not 100% sure about who they are. However, I have a hunch that it's mac & spood. They are both good allies with yellow - and if any 3 people were coordinated in voting together, they would be the ones. Plus, spood has said multiple times that he's on pretty good terms with classic - so if classic was to get in anyone's ear it would be him. I don't know it for sure, but it worries me. Does this mean that they are all gonna work together? I'm actually very nervous about it. even more worried then w/ the maggots. they could be very powerful together, and the only other people on my side of the house that I feel like are gonna really try to win hoh with me are wander, nanto, and maybe tony. turt hasn't tried at all yet, and if jake was putting effort into the comps it isn't showing. me/wander/tony?/nanto does not sound very hopeful to me at all.
It's definitely time to push my gameplay up a notch, because the season is about to get really intense.
Entry #6:
hello everyone, checking back in with another dr. :) i can't remember when i last checked in, but i think its been a couple weeks. it's the final 8 now, spood just got evicted. just like usual i'll try and go over whats been happening recently and how I'm feeling. first i'm going to give you a list of everyone and how i'm feeling with them all
tony: me & tony are really tight right now. we talk constantly about game so I feel pretty secure with him going forward. but, i also get the vibe from him that he's a rat so i wouldn't be surprised if he ends up taking my##s###ut.
classic: although we've definitely had our differences in the past, at this very moment we are on good terms. taking out spood has strengthened our trust. however, within the next couple of weeks i want him gone so I definitely don't want us getting to close.
spark: I also feel like I'm on good terms with spark, but I haven't spoken much with him so to be completely honest. I'm not really sure where he stands in the house.
nanto: i'm also really good with nanto. I think I would be willing to go all the way with him, but we'll see what happens. he's pretty trustworthy and isn't bad at comps so hes a good ally.
phorix: i feel like i'm good with phorix, however, i think him and yellow are close which low-key hinders my relationship with him & prevents me from getting to close with him.
yellow: yellow's cool and all, but i know he's a well rounded player. he literally always gets me out so i want him gone next week if possible.
jake: no tea no shade but like...he hasn't really done much and I've barely spoken with him. no idea where he stands
so as you can gather from this, i'm feeling like i'm in a pretty good position in the house. it's been a very difficult season, but i've gotten to a point where it's basically just me and a lot of the people i initially trusted. I'm not playing like crazy, just kinda chilling and making sure what i want happens. wish me luck :)
Entry #7:
hello!! its me, tast! i'm writing this while it's the final 6. honestly so insane that I've made it this far. to think I literally was the biggest target and my life in the game was on the line week TWO makes it crazy that I'm still here. its march 23, and tonight we have a de. aka, a third of the entire remaining cast will be going home. Originally I wasn't gonna write this, but I thought I should probably give a final [hopefully not] update on my game just in case something happens.
since my last dr, nanto & yellow have been evicted. losing nanto was not a fun experience. he really was a close and trustworthy ally, and so him leaving was not optimal to my game. I was glad however about yellow leaving. The house is very, idk, even I guess you could say. not really any crazy power duos or alliances controlling the game. it'll really come down to who wins the competitions and what they personally would like to do. relationship wise, I actually feel really good about my game. everyone is at least on good terms with me, although I'm sure some want me gone. I've made good decisions to get me this far, but I'm unsure about what to do next.
the most obvious move would be do go after classic. he's strong in competitions, can't play in hoh this week, and has a couple friends on the jury. He definitely needs to go home, it's just I'm a little worried about what would happen to me if he went home. I would definitely have the biggest resume by far [no shade]. Most of the other houseguests didn't really play at all until jury, and even then still kept it low-key. I on the other hand have been fighting and playing very hard since before I even entered the house. a lot of the houseguests are intimidated by me. I don't think they'd think twice about going after me once classic goes home. I see no reason why they'd want to keep me around any longer. I'm not going to be a shield anymore, and nobody wants to go the end with me.
the other option would be to go after someone else. who that'd be, idk. i could pick off somebody like jake or spark, but I feel like that would not only waste a week [sorry jake and spark ily], but it would severely damage me in the final 5 when I can't play for hoh anymore. plus, i'm worried if I don't get out classic now that he'll be able to win competitions until he gets to the end.
as you can see, i'm in a bit of a predicament. Both choices lead me to a hard path to the final 2. at this point, i've come to the conclusion that it's just going to come down to me winning the competitions. if i can win those, I really do believe I can win this game. but just like in most other seasons I've played in, it usually comes down to me needing to win a competition; and failing to do so. i'm optimistic though, if classic goes home I'm left in a house full of players that aren't the best at competitions. spark is good at comps, but I know I'd at least stand a chance competing.
I really hope I'm still in the game after tonight's episode, and I can honestly see it going either way for me. if I do go home, it's been such a fun season. the cast has been so much fun to play with and I really do like everyone in it. no matter what people think about my game, I've worked so hard and this has probably been my strongest game out of any season i've played!! obv I'm proud of myself lol :) no hard feelings, and as usual if i've said something shady about you please don't take offense. if i do end up staying then this'll be an awkward last paragraph lmao but w/e, just making sure i end on a good note. love ya & thx for reading xx
Entry #8:
AHHH om##########irl is still in the game lmao!! it's the final four. that last episode was definitely the most intense all season for me. I'm gonna recap what happened.
we start the session off with a final 6 HOH. I'm feeling good because classic can't play, which immediately increases my chances of winning by 1000% lmao. The competition is to role one ball up a ramp, and then jump on a second ball and roll it through a maze [the floor is lava so if you fall off the ball you're dead]. the ball is really small and so it moves fast, aka scary and difficult to stay on. but some how some way, i didn't fall once and made it to the end and won hoh! i'm obviously ecstatic about my first ever hoh win this season, but it comes along with a lot of responsibilities. in my last dr, i wasn't really sure what I wanted to do if i won hoh. to keep it brief, i decided on targeting classic. i decided to nominate him against jake. fingers crossed the noms could stay the same!!
LMAO of course they didn't. veto was otev. evan told us a certain hat and asked us to find the corresponding houseguest that was wearing the hat in their memory wall picture. I did okay, making it past the first two rounds. but ofc, i lost on the third round and got fourth in veto. : (. classic ended up winning, which was awful because now my target was going to stay for another week, and i had to go more blood on my hands. spark ended up being my renomination as he is good at competitions, and i'm not 100% sure where he lied in the house. I really like spark, but he ended up going 2-1 vote. :(
with the first week of the de out of the way, i'm feeling really nervous. i can't play in hoh, and my life in the game was looking grim. classic wins hoh, i'm feeling even more screwed. the veto comes around - it looks like something i might be able to win. we individually got different colors in a paint bucket and had to paint as many blocks in the room as possible. phorix ends up winning, sealing my fate as a final nominee. classic puts up tony, no shock there.
## #### ###### i really do feel like I'm going home. Phorix says he'll keep me, but I know he has a good ############ with tony so it's sketchy. i literally just nominated jake the week before, so i'm feeling very uneasy about getting his vote. and even if i were to get one of their votes, classic was dead set on breaking the tie sending me home. never in this game have i felt so hopeless sitting on the block. but, one thing is for sure that i was going to FIGHT to stay in the this house.
first off, phorix said he was leaning towards keeping me. he needs another competitor and target to keep around to help him go after classic, and tony is neither of those things. regardless of my pleas about tony and phorix being a f2, me willing to make deals, etc; classic was not budging. he was not going to keep me if it tied. that made everything depend on jake. i PLEADED my damn heart out to jake. i sweared that i would take him to the final 2 no matter what if he saved me. long story short, the impossible happened and i was kept by a 2-0 vote. I was shook let me tell you. tony went home, a good ally and friend of mine - but of course i'm glad that i get to keep on competing.
the final 4 is such a huge achievement, and the win is so close that if i went home now it would be so painful. going forward my number one concern is sending home classic. then, hopefully take jake [possibly phorix] to the final 2 w/ me and win all stars!! lmao best case scenario, wish me luck xx
Entry #9:
hi folks!! I'm writing this right now because phorix has won the final head of household and is deciding to either evict jake or myself. i'll start by recapping the final 4 week.
the final 4 competitions are absolutely crucial. the HOH is my best bet because classic is ineligible to compete, so I just have to beat phorix and jake. in the competition, you have to find the blocks with the houseguests picture on it and then line it up in order of eviction. person who completes it the fastest wins head of household. I start off well collecting the blocks and start putting them in order. However, I completely forgot when Turtly walked from the season. I had to move every single block to switch one mistake, and it was painfully slow. In the end, jake beats me.
if the stakes for winning the veto weren't already high, now they are insanely high. the competition is spleef - and I'm so happy because thats the one competition I'm actually good at. the comp lasted quite a while, and in the end I actually win the damn competition. I'm so incredibly relieved that I'm guaranteed final 3, and my decision was to evict classic. I thought I had the best chance beating phorix and jake in the final head of household. Looking back, this may have been the decision that cost me the game. If I had evicted jake instead, both phorix and classic would have probably brought me to the final 2.
Now I'm in a predicament where I some how have to convince phorix to bring me to the final 2 over JAKE. I literally am going to pull every card in the book to try and get phorix to keep me. I'm telling him that jake has much more jury support than me and he stands a better chance winning against me then jake. will it work? probably not. however I'm not going to stop pleading & fighting until I'm sent home. thats just how I play.
Even if I'm able to convince phorix to evict jake over me, beating him in the final 2 will be tough. between his allies being on the jury/bitter jurors, my chances of winning the game with the 5 juror votes i need are very very bleak.
This is going to be my final diary room for the season, probably regardless of what place I get. this season has been intense and it's been extremely difficult to get to this point. I have fought and clawed my way to this final 3, and to lose now would be devastating. no matter what happens, I know I played the game the best that I could and if i go out, I'll go out fighting. xx, tasty
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